10 years ago today, in the middle of the afternoon, in my old office at Metropolitan YMCA’s community outreach branch…I said yes.
I said yes to the unknown.
I said yes to a God who keeps saying He loves me.
I said yes to a Jesus who kept on pursuing me, teasing open my good-girl heart – this girl who didn’t think she did anything wrong to “need redemption”. He gently unfolded the sinfulness of my flesh…allowing me to break in a safe place – a place where He always stood ready to embrace me with His love.
I remember leaving the place and heading for work with a spirit of inexplicable new joy. Everything felt fresh to me. I saw things with new eyes, and even the leaves were brighter green.
A wonderful happy green. 🙂
I can never adequately explain in words how Jesus has transformed my life, from the inside out. But I want to try. My heart just bursts with wanting to share.
It has taken years, and He has been so patient with me. I can only pray that you see Him through my words, and in sharing my life with you in this platform, You get a glimpse of how real my Heavenly Father is.
He desires a deep connection with you too, sweet friend.
This 10th anniversary with Jesus, I took time out to go for a quiet lunch in town while Dad babysat. And in that few minutes…I was reminded afresh on Faith.
Sometimes, as a 10 year old Christian, you forget.
You forget that you don’t have to do it the world’s way.
You forget that it doesn’t depend on your strength, or how closely you follow “the best method for training” your baby.
You forget that really, nothing is impossible for God, and He is in control – not you.
I really honestly do have many, many moments where I completely forgot that I have a God who loves me and whom I can always rely on.
I forgot that it’s all about Faith.
So on this day, 10 years after receiving my precious Savior into my life…I want to remember again.
That it’s not about me, and never has been about me.
It’s all about Jesus, and whether I have faith in Him and His power.
I need to tap into that power everyday, every minute, with every decision and response that I make. I desperately need His guidance, and He graciously leads me – I need to fix my eyes on Jesus.
This day, I commit myself to renewing my faith in Jesus again, and am praying for another 10 years of life transformation. A life lived surrendered to Him.
A mother, so loved by God above, who desires to impart that reality of being unconditionally loved…to my baby.